Dis /-integration process.

Disintegration process.

Disintegration is a universal phenomena, although every proccess is
individual Ive chosen to externalize it.

Disintegration process.
When thoughts are appearing less correlative, thought discontinuity,
thought loss, memory loss, mind loss, when thoughts can not be-come.

When words are appearing less correlative, or inexpressable, at times
like ´baby talk´ or, matching in ´wrong´ ways as was intended or
spontaneously, I spare you some of the ´looney´ details, like ´reversals´
into before becoming ´this self´.
Internal, external speech, and realization without thought processing.

I am not interested in in looking at anything, but of nature, like trees,
crystals, the ocean, plants, (and cat), always preferred blank walls anyway,
as opposed to seeing fancy images (manmade), although all the other
stuff, when i go out, and curtains and floors, its not really there anyway,
I like blank walls, I prefer some illusory manifestations over others then.

On another level, I have no preference, I just see . . . without really seeing
what I look at.

Evia Island,Greece.

I dont hear any thoughts, I am not aware of thoughts, I hear speaking,
I speak inside or to others outside, or to my higher self, or my higher
self speaking directly using the speech organ. Words still appear less
correaltive or spontaneously matching in ´wrong´ ways when I speak,
or inexpressable.

The  body rejects most fruit and veggies, except a few, and organic coconut
water, the ingestion effect breath causing difficulty to breathe, hyper allergenic
reactions and nausea, thin coffeee with coconutmilk help with nausea.

I feel very energized and fiery, except for periods with total  exhaustion requiring
withdrawl and deep rest.

I seem to have lost the mind. I dont miss it.
Emptiness and fullness, its mind, what is there then without .. . .life,
life energy, . . . . a ´higher self´ . . . . . . an ´I´ .
People have glorified mind, made it g_d, or been its pleasure /pain slaves,
also to self created materiality bonding (the devil metaphor).
I never liked this ´imposed contsruct´ .
I don´t what I say really in the way, I am not thinking about it, excuse me
any . . . . ( i dont know what ). I still feel duality in the astral body.

I do not advocate for any form of ´enlightenment´. I dont agree with the
idea of ´enlightenment´ , or as something ´to reach or become´ . I agree
with true higher self connection with the physical body and ´removing
whats stands in between´.

Radiance or illumination can be natural effect of bringing in the higher self,
or bringing in the higher light, a light that can pervade the lower bodies
incl the physical.

Re the Mind, and Hypnosis selfimposed or otherwise ´ Mind Controlled´.
Ive seen people sit in ´slow motion hypnoticed mindstates´ saying
´all the right spiritual things´ according to dogma, but no life, no fire,
no spontanity . . . . . . artificial like.

The body reject more fruit or leafy green, in this ´disintegration proccess´
unbearable bodily feeling entering the bloodstream hyper allergenic, only
pure organic coconut water.

organic pure coconut water.

I feel like deleting everything Ive ever written, all into dissolution, all
words, all attachments, eliminate or converge in to a ´more pure and
true state´, my way of being is knowing or not knowing, no belief , anything
I may be wrong about, ill discard any day, or correct to a ´more true knowing´
ie progressevive, successive revelation. ____ I look at words right now on a
computer screen they are all meaningless to me, I cant relate to them, I can
laugh at it though, the meaningless.

The instinctual survival mechanism and it ways are unusual clear to feel, see.

I am ´too´ righteous for many people, not sorry about that, came into this body,
life like that.
self-righteousness though is tainted with shadow self, is something to be aware of.

I feel unwell on coconut water also, words are lost from speech.
Timeloss, memoryloss.

As the angel of death came nearer,
clarity and truth prevailed,
know that you are loved, the angel said,
before the life was lost in its radiant aura.

Desire can burn it self out, desire for food can burn itself out, hunger is
physiological in the traditional sense. Synchronistic with the hyper allergy
and unwellness with more fruit, veggie and even the coconut water.

In another perspective re how polarity express in many ways, hunger and thirst can be
seen as two expressions of desire ; hunger can be seen as masculine, and thirst as
feminine, when the yogi, soul or higher self control these impulses, and stand in
balanced equilibrium between the pair of opposites in the astral body/plane, the energy
behind the sacral center, can be transferred upwards to the throat, higher creational point.
# raya yoga,

All desire can be converted inward towards union with the higher self or g_d.

My Father also spoke against the UN and other corrupted ways and corrupted
democracies of the west, he also spoke against communism, the Cia tried to
destroy us both. His seed of creation in my body and blood soon will dissipate,
the last goodbye, ´my own´ creation to be, I love you father, last time I call you this,
on the higher level you are not that anyway.

Conclusively for now after 1,5 month, progressingly more ´higher self integration´
and how it effects the whole bodily system and organs not compatible with having
veggie food / juices, into the system from the outside. Felt pain in the heart from
coconutwater, allergies, water gives nausea too.

I keep many thoughts and feelings to myself, I am very righteous and
puritanistic (not religious reference), also I would likely be greatly
misunderstood, or accused of many things, for those who doesn´t
understand the place I speak from in righteousness, law, and purity.

Bitter elixiric latte, organic coconutmilk, Wormwood and Black Walnut.
Organic and wildcrafted.
Used them with coconutmilk before starting waterfasting.
Wormwood (artemisia absinthium) and Black Walnut, ancient herbal
remedies for detox, cleansing and restoration. I like the bitter taste,
feel the drops to be nervous system relaxing also.

The personality of a ´fool´ could believe, someone would die for his
sins. The soul does not believe it knows. The soul knows its own lower
pesonality reflection can be crucified metaphorically speaking, And
itself alike with its temple on its own plane. ´Sacrifice from below upwards´.
Soul ref. here 1st immediate higher self level.

The Red Sea

Transformative Colours of Blue upon Red, metaphorically speaking.
The ancient symbolic of the rose for desire, as in the progress of changing or
transforming the colours from deep red, at some point crossing over (purified
/ purifying ) blue to white eventually.
In other analogies the Rose is used also to symbolize the personality, which is
to – in one terminology or path – be refined, purified, transfigured, sacrificed . . .
and eventually crucified upon the cross symbolically speaking ; the rose on the

The Red Sea views – 4k ultra hd. Egypt. trailer

The sea is no more, the heaven is no more,the world is no more,
maybe there was a new sea, or a new heaven or new world / body,
or a new sound appearing or it was all gone, into disssolution.

Have no desire to experience anything through the senses on this plane.
Inward withdrawl of senses. they stop reporting to the brain.
An end is near. Have no desire for taste. Have no desire for pleasure,
have no desire to avoid pain. Have no hunger, have no thirst, physiological
hunger is with the physical body, on another level hunger and thirst can be
seen as two aspects of desire, astral polarity masculine hunger and feminine thirst.

The initial text too this whole writing, I inwrote in the end.

What happens if all the control mechanisms and fears of the personality
(lower self ego) comes to an end, a death would occur, some people
´fight death´, others simply let go.

I differentiate between lower self personality ego, and higher self I.
Ie. also higher self integration as the lower self comes to an end.


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What can Liberation of thought mean ?

What can liberation of thought mean ?

A freeness to use or not use the thought matter substance or thought fire.
That the senses does not control thought.
That loop patterings, systemic patterings, habitual patterns does not control thought.
That instinct, memory ( real/ or implants individual or collective) and desire does not control thought.
That astral parasites or machine techs does not have influence.
That culture, propaganda, newsmedia, dogma, religion, mk ( mindcontrol / mku ) etc does not control thought.
That . . . .

The ´higher self´ ideally is the one to use/ control thought.

Peace between thoughts,
Peace between breaths.

– Elena

What is a liberated thought without a liberated body, a non attached / unbound body.
the word or thought become flesh.

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The nightly heaven of cosmos are full of stars tonight,
New heaven and new earth,
Within, appearing before dawn the hidden secret.

The nightly heaven of cosmos are full of stars tonight = 2888
New heaven and new earth = 2888
Within, appearing before dawn the hidden secret = 2888 , Gematria

The Sea is no more, the Heaven is no more, the world is no more et cetera,
maybe there was a new sea,or a new heaven or new world / body, or a new
sound appearing,or it was all gone, into disssolution.
The sound was no more, the pure idea was no more .
The thought was nore more,dissolved or a new was created from fire.

Issness The Sea is a Sea of Light, in the dark of Night of radiating Stars.

In reality or ideally it should be the ´Higher Self´ controlling the brain. – In Raja Yoga the mind is but an instrument of the Soul

In reality or ideally it should be the ´Higher Self´ controlling the brain.
and thought or thought fire.


In Raja Yoga the mind is known only to be an instrument of the Soul or true self.
When the chitta (or mind stuff) is stilled and purified the Sun / Soul or Higher Self can reflect through ;
When the water is still and the surface does not reflect or ripple from surroundings, the soul
can reflect clear through, and so also when the emotional body is cleansed and clear the soul
can reflect through it.
The clear water metaphorically is a state of serenity and calmness. ( sattva )

Aquamarine Crystal associated both with pure crystalline water and clear heavenly reflection.
Revered in ancient Greece and Egypt a stone of the seer, of meditation, and ´ calmness of the sea´
Equally so
blue Sapphire is associated with heavenly reflection.
Realm of purification = 759 Immaculate conception = 759 Holy language = 759 To speak is to create = 759
Life is a precious gift = 759


6 stages of Raya Yoga Meditation.
1. Aspiration,
2. Concentration,
3. Meditation,
4. Contemplation,
5. Illumination,
6. Inspiration.


The Seer is Pure Knowledge.
Direct cognition of the Seer or yogi centered in the consciousness of the self.
Eye of the seer = 759    Perfect eyes = 759   The Soul ; The real Seer.
Basis of correct knowledge;  correct or clear observation  or witness ( or accurate evidence), correct or clear perception or intuition and correct deduction.

Through contemplation, meditation, concentration and observation Discernment can be made between 1 ) The one who thinks (The Soul as the real Thinker ) 2 ) what is used to think with and 3 ) What is thought ( the thought content ).
Before the Soul has its ´rightful place´ as thinker, thoughts are merely very generally speaking a reflection / feedback of outside organ sensous perception rapported to the brain, and set in motion in the mind.  Before that peoples thoughts are merely a feedback /influenced/ created by outside circumstances, influenced by what they read, what others say, by memory, what they are taught, or conscious or unconscious or sub conscious bodily or emotional desires or impulses ´veiled´ in thought forms or veiled / dressed in ´mental matter substance´ or influneced by by what lays in the whole mental sphere of new, old and ancient thoughts forms.
The bridge from the mind merely being imprinted and set in motion from the outside is ; Independent thinking and ´ think for yourself´ is part of
Development of the ´Mental Subtle Body´ ( and becomming self-responsible of thoughts), as in learning to generate thoughts by one self,  independent (inner ) thought activity and Consciously Focus a thought process which can eventual lead to abstract thinking and higher thinking ( higher mental plane ).
Meditation or concentration and contemplation can lead to abllity of mental clarity and abillity of ´ stillness of thoughts ´, abillity of * Calming the thought -fire,  abillity of controlling the thought fire,  controlling the mental fire and thought.

Development of the Mental Subtle Body
: Ways of thinking in developing of the ´mental body ´; logic thinking, rational thinking, intuitive thinking, clear thinking, correlational thinking, creative thinking, pure reasoning thinking,  induktive /deductive thinking, abstract and higher thinking ( eg. influenced by Soul /Higher Self / higher consciousness streams), discerning thinking, analytical thinking, critical thinking, visual thinking,  symbolic thinking, holistic thinking, pure thinking (which can relate to 1) unprejudiced thinking but other ways as well, eg 2 ) the plane of pure thought or pure idea ), independent thinking + development of the mental faculty ´buddhi ´ for right discrimination and development of discernment ability.
What can Liberation of Thought mean ?


Book 3 – Sutra 30 Raja Yoga
30-31. By fixing the attention upon the throat center, the cessation of hunger and thirst will ensue. By fixing the attention upon the tube or nerve below the throat center, equilibrium is achieved.
Excerpt: ” On the astral or desire plane, within the astral body of the aspirant, must this balancing process be wrought out to completion. This is the great battleground, symbolized so beautifully for us in the human body, with its three higher centers, its lower energy focal points and that great middle center, the solar plexus, typifying the astral plane and its work. It will now be apparent why the two sutras are read as one, for they cover one completed work.
After achieving some measure of equilibrium, the aspirant learns to perfect that balancing process and gains the power to stand firm and immovable, preserving an unshakable equilibrium between the pairs of opposites. The nerve, called “kurma-nadi” or the “tortoise tube” is the physical correspondence to the point the aspirant has reached “
” The true significance of the above sutras which are here bracketed together, grows out of an understanding of the transmutative process and the transference which is effected in the solar plexus.
The energy of the sacral center which feeds the generative organs is in due course of time transferred into the throat center. The creative process is then carried on by thought, sound and the spoken Word. Hunger and thirst are the two aspects of desire, the one, hunger, being positive, masculine and grasping; the other, thirst, being negative, feminine and receptive. Those two words are but symbols of the two great impulses underlying the sex impulse. When these impulses are dominated and controlled, then the energy of the center lying behind the organs concerned, can be carried upward to the throat, and hunger and thirst are arrested in the esoteric sense. It should be borne in mind here that these two words are the physical plane analogies to the great pairs of opposites which the yogi has to balance and which he does balance when the solar plexus is performing its highest function.”

Light of. the soul , Patanjali Sutras, praphrased.
( NB : I am not agrreement with / advocating  everything paraphrased, in the book, especially passages that has been ´tainted with religion/ dogma´ , however still many good ´translations´, like the one above. And I am not advocating for ´ the great white brotherhood´. or AAB either )


Being dispassionate weather to be loved or hated is a Liberated State
Equally so with dispassion towards pleasure and pain, ie. center -ed / point

between polarities. detached and unbound.
Most seek pleasure, and try avoid pain, yet may seek pain in subconscious   ways, (patterns, programmings).
And mk ultra pain/ pleasure inversion  on society scale.
Polarity dispassion is a ´transcendental´ point, Balance is the
´middle key´ . The spine is inline, equilibrium. Being dispassionate
towards either polarity, is a liberated state.
The soul ( higher self) is not the mind, . . . the ´mind states´ are
initially ´subjected´ to pleasure or pain, to feel pain or not pain.
Did you create heaven, or was ´heaven´ created for you ?

When there is no desire to seek pleasure, through the senses,
pleasure doesnt matter. It is / is not.  Pleasure is tempoarily, nothing compared
to the ´heavenly feeling´ beyond.
The soul ( higher self) is not the mind, . . . the ´mind states´ are
initially ´subjected´ to pleasure or pain, to feel pain or not pain.

Raja Yoga Excerpts.
Basis of correct knowledge; correct perception, correct deduction, and correct witness (or accurate evidence).
By meditation upon Light and upon Radiance, knowledge of the Spirit can be reached and thus peace can be achieved.
Non-attachment is freedom from longing for all objects of desire, either earthly or traditional, either here or hereafter.
Peace (steadiness of the chitta) can be reached through meditation on the knowledge which dreams give.
Peace can also be reached through concentration upon that which is dearest to the heart.
The mind states are five, and are subject to pleasure or pain; they are painful or not painful.
These modifications (activities) are correct knowledge, incorrect knowledge, fancy, passivity (sleep) and memory.
The chitta is stabilized and rendered free from illusion as the lower nature is purified and no longer indulged.
A further stage of samadhi is achieved when, through one pointed thought, the outer activity is quieted. In this stage, the chitta is responsive only to subjective impressions.
The Seer is Pure Knowledge.
Direct cognition of the Seer or yogi centered in the consciousness of the self. 


The Soul, Higher Self  or the true self can stand independent of the mind, observing it, or controlling it and using it as an instrument.
As well as the Soul can fully control the brain and organs and the entire lower nature through its subjugation.
The Light of the Higher Self, soul into the actual physical brain consciousness, gives clarity ; also to better see through illusion, glamor, untruth and nonesense. P.ex when meditating on higher self alignment, focus on /-visualize the down pouring of light also into the physical brain can help with that.
Many people ´suffer´ from brain fog or un -clarity in the brain, that can have a varity of causes, incl food choices., . . . . . and ´the veils of maya´.
Personally Ive experienced in my plantbased diet, that  raw veggies and fruit, non mucus producing, non starchy, non ´slime´producing  + plenty of water, enable more clarity than coocked, baked, fried veggies. Also give more clear saliva. I feel what I ingest directly right away in the brain / ´brain chemestry´.
´Heavenly light ´ is cold  . . . (metaphorically speaking) . . . . .  ” the cold clear  light of north “, . . .   heaven, in the head,   . . . . . and hell is hot as they say ; )

Vrishchikasana or the Scorpio Pose. Do not practise with back or hip injuries.
Overall strenghtening. Preparation poses recommended, ie  advancing to in link
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Free Your Brain .. , .. into clarity, and light . . .
In reality or ideally it should be the ´Higher Self´ controlling the brain.
Who or what is controlling your brain ?
.The Soul or ´Higher Self ´as the ´real thinker´, emotional reactions yours or others, impulses or desires veiled in thought matter, sense stimuli, instinctual matters, parasites, politics, food, sex, carnal desires, ´pleasure seeking/ pain seeking´, memory, propaganda, worries, fears, infiltrated or false masters, false or distorted  paradigmes, zombie mass spirituality fogging the brain, archonic parasites or implants,  or religious implants individual or collective etc.
.Raya Yoga  Keys  : One pointed concentration, meditation, contemplation, inner recollection, dicipline, aspiration, inspiration ,
1. Practise , 2. Purification, 3. Discrimination , 4. Discernment , 5) Withdrawl.l
1. Aspiration,
2. Concentration,
3. Meditation,
4. Contemplation,
5. Illumination,
6. Inspiration.
On control :
Focus, thoughts, energy :
Hold, withhold, preserve  ( ´or use wisely without waste´ )
Attune / dettune
Vitalize / devitalize
Control and No Control  ( ´surrender ´)
Both willfull one-pointed focus and ´ absolute defocus´
are ´ opening pathways´ . . .
.And Silence . . was heard in The Heaven ( head ) on The Throne ,
– Elena Santini
Afterscript .
In reality or ideally ;  ( ie. before general fall of ´personality seat
from ´the throne bewteen the eyes´ to solar plexus ) it should be the Soul
or ´Higher Self´ controlling the thoughts, thought fire . . . and brain.
The Higher Self – And The Throne Between The Eyes ;
The original ´Soul Seat´ before i.e the planetary Atlantean fall,
where after generally speaking the personality became solar plexus polarised.
´The great collective fall ´ . . . . . post Atlantean times.
The ´upward journey´ . . . .back to the original ´ Soul Seat ´..

Re chakras /centers; the deeper down one go in cleansing & balancing of chakras, the
higher up one can go, at least in a fully balanced, stable way that is grounded.
“For the first shall be the last .”
´ Higher chakras here meant as the first ;
Crown / Head  Center 1, divine will.
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